"The intensity of your desire governs the power with which the force is directed."  -John McDonald

You know when you dream about your life 10 years from now, and you come up with all of these plans that you want to carry out (dream job, marriage, dream home, children) but it never seems feasible? Well I have had the same dream "plan" for years now and today I decided to make it into my official 10 year goal. Sure changes may be made to it along the way, but I am willing to dedicate the next 10 years of my life towards reaching it. So people here it is; I will start my journey by graduating from nursing school this may and passing the NCLEX-RN to receive my license. I will begin to work for 2 years in any available department, however I would prefer OB. In my third year as an RN I will apply for my PhD and work part time while entering in 4 more years of school. I want to be settled in a home by the time I am done with my PhD and hopefully married maybe with one child but that is still debatable haha. When I have obtained my PhD while working I will have acquired the skills, experience and knowledge that I need to be a partner in my own practice/labor center. I would love to own this practice with an OBGYN and a Pediatric RN PhD or Physician who all share the same view as myself and do not view themselves as a higher being. I want a healthy environment for my employees and patients at all times. Within this practice I would like a full 10 bedroom birthing center with 2 operating rooms for cesareans. Ideally it is where a woman can go from the point she is thinking about pregnancy, throughout her pregnancy, and up to 1 year after the birth of her child. This is a far fetched dream, but I haven't been able to picture anything else that I want more for my future, and I always aim for what I want the most. I encourage all of you to follow your dreams, for real, I am not being cheesy. If you fail, you have only gained experience and learned from it. I will not be upset if I do not reach my goal, because if it becomes something I greatly dislike then it's a good thing I found out, and maybe I will be dreaming of something different. The point is to push yourself to achieve what you most desire, and to never underestimate yourself! So all of you go right now and reach for what you most desire! Thanks for listening!

xoxo- Vic

"The man who has no imagination, has no wings."-Muhammad Ali

I think I have officially lost the child within me. I still LOVE my Disney and Pixar movies, but I find myself focusing on becoming and independent adult so much that I have left myself no room for "play time". I can't remember the last time, I actually let loose and enjoyed myself. I used to go out and party with friends, or enjoy a comedic movie night, but now I get stressed at the thought of having fun. I live in black and white, and erased all of the color out of my life. I am always thinking about what I have to do the upcoming months with school, that I can't even enjoy a beer without getting hypertensive. My life is consumed, and surrounded by anxiety and stress. I need to live my life the way I used to, because this isn't healthy. My vow is to spend one whole night a week without doing school work or mentioning nursing. I need to find the fun playful me again. I am not saying I'm going to become a party animal, but I am going to try to let loose and enjoy my play time. I need fun back in my life. I need laughter back in my life. I just need my life back! Thanks for listening!

xoxo Vic